It's a good thing you weren't me not getting Hawkmoon.

I have not gotten a new exotic, other than from Xur, in almost 6 months. In that time i have had 10 exotics drop maybe, all ARMOR that I already have, when I still dont have like 6. It's really annoying and I will admit makes me not want to play a bit cause it's another wasting my time thing. I don't mind some duplicates, But 10 (or more I can't keep track, probably more) when I have still have so many left is just not right. That means the exotic protection is not there to me.

FUCK THIS GAME! Fuck, this game. fuckity FUCK FUCK FUCK this game. ... *Sigh* ... Fuck this game. Just... fuck. This. Game. But most of all... FUCK THIS BIPOLAR SADISTIC RNG!

HEY BUNGIE WHERE IS THE FREEK'N Exotic Duplicate Weighting ya'll flaped y'er gums about, cus I sure as shit ain't see-n it! WHY IN THE FLYIN' FUDGE MARKET DID I GET AN EXOTIC -I ALREADY HAVE-IN THE GOSH DARNED ENDGAME ACTIVITY!! WHO IN THE FUCK SAID YES TO THAT SHIT!!!

I JUST DID THE LAST...*deep breath*... I just did the Last Wish Raid. End to end. Legit. I did MOth E'fn Riven of a Thousand FUCKING Voices as it was meant to be played. I did it with blueberrys. Did I mention that I did Riven FULL ON LEGIT! So I must admit... some nerves upon me are signaling. Did I mention I did it with BLUEBERRYS? Ya'll I ain't even goin' mention. The EYES. THE EYES! DON'T SHOOT THE EYES! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaAa *GashP* TO be fair... a pair of them were sherpas, with my goal being an understanding to the mechanics of the Vault room better. I'm getting there. It's starting to make sense... but I'm not there yet. I should be thrilled. Hey... if it has just of been another raid weapon and NOT 1K, then Bummer. Such is life. If it had been an Exotic I didn't have... WHICH HERE IN THE LAST WEEK OF YEAR 2 IS STILL THE CASE, then while I would be abit down...CUS' THAT EXOTIC SOUND REALLY GETS the hopes up... I would still be generally OK.

BUT THIS!!?!?! Part of Raiding is THE LOOT. Why? Because LOOT game, that's why. That's part of the contract there Bungo. I learn that the real loot are the friendships we built along the way, while you Bungo, hand over the SHINY SHIT that MAKE THE BOOM BOOM GO BOOM ALL SHINY LIKE! And the last Chest is the one with the big boy pants friendos. And what did I get? WHAT DID I GET!?! I GOT, for all intents and purposes, NOTHING!!!! You stretched out your finger and said "thanks for playing". You rubbed it in my face.

So I say...

FUCK YOU Bungie. FUCK YOU.

You took ALL the JOY I had from beating Riven Legit... and ya fucked me with it. Didn't get me flowers or anything. Ain't even giv'n me the common courtesy of a reach around here. Just... RUDE.

*Sigh*

I feel better now. Still need to read the Weeks BupDate.

Gosh darn't ya'll broil my britches some times I swear. Fuck.

(Edit: Yes, this post means I STILL do not have the "ONE THOUSAND VOICES" Exotic. I thought I had finally got it ya'll.
For one second I was so happy. ;_;)

So I don't even bother trying to get it.

Not having an experience is just as valid as having one. Misery is interesting.

(Still no Anarchy for me).

It's one thing to have RNG around some of the weapon perks. A lot of people seem to like that (I don't personally). Exotics, however, should always have a defined path to get them, otherwise players just get frustrated when they can't ever seem to earn them. Imagine if 1K voices required simply beating the last encounter with everyone alive when you turned the heart in and opening a specific chest. Or maybe there is a hidden chest that always drops it if you don't have it that players would have had to discover.

I'd have only a few exotic weapons. I'm bad about finishing quests.

I'm making this addendum here to make my... frustration a touch more palatable and decipherable. It's not just (TL;DR) the RNG, the raid weapon, or my time among blueberrys that brought me to an uncharacteristic boil.

Let's start FIRST with one of my oldest frustrations with the game, that has only since become worse.
Exotic. Duplicate. Weighting. To quote one of my experimental rabbles...

Patch 2.0.5 – Holy Fuck What a JOKE!
That “Exotic Duplicate Weighting” was straight up broke.

I’ve never before met a patch so very rude,
Every time an Exotic engram dropped it said to me “Get screwed!”

It’s like…

You invited me to the wedding and offered me cakes,
Then you throw it in a shredder and offered me fakes,
How much of this do you think I’m going to take,
Before the joy of exotics just completely brakes.

Like Marie Antoinette, a gracious offer never met,
Leaving me beheaded, spine loose from its slack,
You’re killing me either way with exotics I lack,
This is what I get thinking you’ve got my back.

My head is down low shaking, screaming with a sigh,
Bungie! Do you think its funny to just straight up lie!
To string us along! Do just do us wrong!?

I feel like a fish, hook and bating,
Your RNG went inverse, and left me hating,
I quit the game again, how freaking frustrating.

If EXOTICS are going to be so FREEK’N RARE,
Don’t FREAKING psych me! FREEK’N SHARE!
Do you even under stand?! Do you even care?!
How deeply asshole this is to even dare,
To turn my joy into a swear.
This wasn’t a problem when it wasn’t rare.

Before you dropped down the exotic drop rate,
Exotics to me felt actually quite great.

Dupes were ok, a little bit annoying, but hey a boost in light,
It wouldn’t be long before another exotic engram caught my sight.

Now that exotics are actually exotics, it’s a wedding moment.
A Guardian and their gun or armor is blessed bestowment be!
(And you don’t really want to come in-between that, agree?)

I guess we’ll see what you do, drop rate and exotic gun.
With all this said, we’re almost done.

There are still a few more nit picks that grind on my fun.

I've been documenting every single exotic I've received more or less. I think I've missed one or two instances for whatever reason, but all and all I've documented it all (Click "Exotic. Duplicate. Weighting."). The goal that has been advertised, such as; "When a player receives an Exotic, we now take into account all Exotics the player has found and weight them against Exotics they have yet to acquire. This lowers the player’s chances of receiving Exotics they already own." has not been seen by this fan. It has not been fun, and it has in fact dampened it. It's been a year since that patch. I'm retiring that playlist come Shadowkeep.

Secondly, location location location. This is a RAID. AN END GAME ACTIVITY! The metrics of my expectation are completely and... I'd like to think justifiably, different. I SHOULD NOT BE SEEING REPEAT EXOTICS IN A RAID... if I don't have all exotics already. I think that's fair. I'd like of course more than that, no dupes at all for example, but... bare minimum.

Third. The Blueberrys - One was ignorantly rude to not only the host but to the group at large, and often when communicating would talk some erroneous nonsense not relevant to the task at hand. To say their head was not in the game would be an understatement. Oh... and they were late to the prescribed time, tried to get us to stop raiding momentarily because they were late and the only reason they were let in is because another blueberry that did get there on time suddenly had a family emergency and had to dodge. Another Blueberry just... didn't have really ANY kit. I get that it takes time to get some of the higher tier weapons, but don't go into an endgame group activity if you can't bring some bacon, m I rite? That, plus the numerous mystery eye shots (that suddenly went away when Blueberry Number one was tasked with add clearing instead of boss damage), and I got to say after 5 hours and change total of all this I was feel'n a touch frayed (and my Shurpas were too, though they did their best to be polite).

Fourth. The Built in anticipation. For the first second... I thought I had finally got it. I wasn't thinking oh I can't wait for my exotic I already have, I was going... will this be it. *BUM bum BUM bum BUM* Than Bungie is all...

Cool. cool. :/

Fifth and final... The Loot. I got jipped. I mean, I did get some armor (woo hoo) though out the raid, but no new weapons. At all. The only new thing I recall getting in this raid instance was a helm... but... hey armor 2.0 next week. Woo hoo. I just... fuck all man. This is a loot game. Step off whit that stingy shit. Once I got that Dupe Exotic from that last chest... broke the camels back Brothers and Sisters.

Someone at Bungie needs to get punched in the face for this comedy of errors. Or hey... buy me a burger. Ya'll owe your fans anyway from Halo days. :P

And there you have it.